Defining “Productive” in This Season
September 17th, 2012
I’ve been struggling a bit with finding my rhythm now that the kids are both in “school” full-time. I work part-time from home after several years of 40 hours a week in an office with another few hours of commuting thrown in. There are suddenly a lot of extra hours in the day and I’ve felt this nagging sense that I wasn’t utilizing them fully.
And, I’ll be honest. I felt guilty that I had so much free time to myself away from the kids. I’m a mother of two. Shouldn’t my every waking moment be filled with caring for (or preparing to care for) my kids??
Um, no. Actually.
But it’s been hard to bring my head around to that. I’ve had to redefine what it means to be “productive” when work dominates less of my time. I have different metrics now. Last Friday, I spent a couple hours editing a video for work. I wrote a blog post. I prepared a Sunday school lesson for the women’s class I’m teaching. I made cinnamon rolls from scratch. And chicken enchiladas for dinner. And yes, I watched a couple episodes of my current favorite TV show.
It was a good day.
It’s been helpful to be reminded by several friends that there are seasons to life. And I’m in a brief, liminal season right now. Six months from now, my life will look completely different as we welcome Baby 3 to the family. From everything I’ve heard, it’ll be chaos for a while as we figure out new routines.
So I’m allowing myself to go slow for a few months. Take some deep breaths. Enjoy baking. And reading. And going to lunch with my husband.
And as for feeling guilty about not spending every waking moment with my kids? Miss Mouse set me straight when I arrived to pick her up from her school on Friday afternoon. I walked in with a big smile, only to be greeted by a glaring almost-four-year-old who demanded — “Why are you here so early? I’m busy doing things!“